Random Ramblings

ramblingsI think I mentioned that I’ve been under some stress lately. I don’t deal with stress well. Never did. Not even as a kid. I used to get really nauseated before tests (until I hit high school and decided that studying made me nauseated so I stopped studying, but that’s a different story).

Now I’m suffering from grown-up stress. You know the kind – money, house, kids, bills, vehicle (I tell people my van is held together with prayer and divine duct tape), ex-husband, health, kids, ex-husband…did I mention ex-husband?

The man has very little contact with the kids. He moved over 500 km (over 300 miles) away and he doesn’t drive. He only contacts the kids at his convenience and I avoid contact with him at all costs (seriously, if I never, ever, ever saw him again it would be too soon). But when he does make contact, well, the proverbial poop hits the fan.

My marriage was not a pleasant one. The kids’ dad was very volatile, and moody (kinda like a hurricane is breezy). I spent 12 years in the trenches of an abusive marriage and it left its battle scars – mental ones. My marriage is one of the reasons I have PTSD.

I’m not sure how much I talk about what’s happening, but when I can share I will. In the meantime, I’m trying to focus on the positive.


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11 Responses to Random Ramblings

  1. First off, thanks for translating the mileage for me! And second, I’m so sorry that you are struggling right now. There was a very brief moment many years ago when T’s dad thought he wanted to be involved; and I know how much it stressed me out. I can’t imagine having that fear hanging over me (well, I can, but for the most part, my fear is only in my head, which I don’t know if that is better or worse!). Just know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

    I, too, hate the grown up stress. I’m trying really hard not to stress, but to just remember that I’ve always been provided for before, and I will be again. I sure hope that your stress level drops soon! šŸ™‚

  2. Hope you can get the stress under control. What’s the adult version of not studying for the exam?

  3. Holly says:

    LOL. I stopped balancing my cheque book because I cried every time I did it. It’ll be ok. I just have to have faith and focus on the good things.

  4. It’s hard dealing with circumstances beyond our control, that being ex-husbands. Yuck. I have my own issues with this, especially now that Maycee has anxiety. I had to decompress last week when I dropped her off for just a short visit, and he couldn’t copy. I was so aggravated!! Anyhow, I’ve been stressed, too, Holly, which is why I haven’t written a post in awhile. I keep trying to sit down and write, and I type, but it feels like nothing is being said. This, too, shall pass. Lots of hugs and love! XOXO-Kasey

  5. Um, that’d be “he couldn’t cope”…not “copy”…however, that may have been a Freudian slip on my part, lol!

    • Holly says:

      Lol, thanks for clarifying that for me. The stress is why I haven’t been writing anything of substance. That and I’m on 8 weeks of daily headaches, but hopefully that will be coming to an end soon.
      Know that I’m thinking of and praying for you and Maycee. Big hugs.

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