I’ve been feeling a little down lately. Over the past year I’ve been making active choices to eliminate negativity from my life – be it my own thoughts, external sources (movies, books, etc.) or people. This past week I made the choice to sever relationships with two such negative individuals. I believe they were the last of the negative people that I have allowed to affect to my life and it was a difficult decision to make, but a necessary one.
What I find interesting is that these individuals are never aware of their own negativity. They are oblivious to how their actions, words and deeds affect those around them. However, as my brother pointed out, at least one of these people is incapable of meeting my expectations, no matter how what those expectations are or how “normal” they may seem to have them. The other person, I believe, feels that I don’t meet their expectations. This has led to a 20-year cycle of misunderstandings, misrepresentation, hurt feelings, negativity and un-forgiveness (I’m still working on forgiving, but as C.S. Lewis said “For we find that the work of forgiveness has to be done over and over again.“)
You may be wondering where I’m going with this, it’s Word Wednesday but so far there’s no word. There is method to my madness (ooo, there’s a good one!) – I’ve been feeling depressed; down; “blue”. That got me to thinking, why do we use the word “blue” to describe sadness? So, being the ever curious individual that I am, I looked it up. I was only able to find one source, but it offered interesting insight into the use of “blue”.
From Yahoo! Answers:
In the English language, blue may refer to the feeling of sadness. “He was feeling blue”. This is because blue was related to rain, or storms, and in Greek mythology, the god Zeus would make rain when he was sad (crying), and a storm when he was angry. Kyanos was a name used in Ancient Greek to refer to dark blue tile (in English it means blue-green or cyan). The phrase “feeling blue” is linked also to a custom among many old deepwater sailing ships. If the ship lost the captain or any of the officers during its voyage, she would fly blue flags and have a blue band painted along her entire hull when returning to home port.